So many things I could say right now.
So many photos I could upload.
So many things I could update.
So many things I could complain about.
So many things that made me sad.
Fuck. I really am sad. And being home alone on a Saturday night isn't helping. I want to go out for supper like before. I want to hang out. I miss my friends, but they don't feel the same. Sucks.
I want to go on a spin with Hamdi. Look for mee goreng that doesn't even taste nice. Fight about parking his bike. I lost Hamdi. He hasn't contacted me for 2 days and its killing me. Its like
Bukit Batok all over again.
I miss my baby girls and baby boys. I miss all my friends. :(
BOYS, BOYS, BOYS
LADY GAGA[THE FAME]"... Don't forget my lipstick, I left it in your ashtray"
I guess this entry's going to be a super wordy entry, to wrap up the entire of 2009 and throw it behind me. I don't even know where to start. To start off with the more beautiful, wonderful things in life, I made so many friends this year. Or should I say, I made new friends from old friends whom I've used to take advantage of. Calling only when I think I should, or only when I need to. Like when I'm upset and crying.
I guess it takes a really long time for an idiot like me to realize that the people who are there for me at the end of the day are just there all along. You girls know who you are. Though we don't talk much, you know how much you all mean to me still.
As for Jing Ting and Trevor, well... Let's just say I'm still very much suprised that we're still hanging out. With our jobs, JT with her boyfriend, Trevor so occupied with his NS, wow... We do still find time out together. Though we still bitch and fight this much. Though we've all changed this much. I so totally remember the time we ate at Aji-San's and we just talked about ourselves 15 years ago, and where exactly do we see ourselves at 20. And are we satisfied? No. Hell not. There're so many things I haven't done.
Princess Mira, what can I say? Even JT is jealous of you. Haha! Thanks to you, you've opened up my eyes to many things though all I do is just
state facts like you being old... Diabetic... You know I love you still! In fact, this old woman was there almost all the time when I was down, or when I'm up. I'd share everything with her, and there's nothing I would keep from her, no matter how much I know she'll get disappointed with me. As much as daddy dearest forbades me to be out with my non-chinese friends, I really don't care. Haha!
And her friends too. Wow. Currently, I only see myself as closest to Farah, because I've yet to meet Rozy and Dayah and one of my resolutions would be to meet those 2 dirty bitches! Hahaha! Spent the breaking of the new year with Farah and Mira at Mira's crib, and though we didn't party... I mean seriously, as much as our ass is itchy to grind some
hard stuffs, who needs them boys when we have great company? Watching
Marley & Me together wasn't so bad either. I didn't feel stupid crying alone unlike the last time I watched it and bawled on the plane. :D
Met a couple of new friends like Sharime and gang too. Had some really wild time with one of them... And got strewn aside. It was stupid, but an experience. If I was given a chance to rewind, I wouldn't want to experience this. It isn't worth it.
What would my mama do.... Uh oh Uh oh. If she knows about me and you... Uh oh Uh oh.Went to my first club with Hamdi at St James on the 22nd June. Haha! Had a great ball of time, and it was also when I realized I'm completely rhythm-deaf and hell, I'm one bitch who can't dance for shit. >:D
Continued clubbing with my girls at Double O and Rebel. Nothing to be proud about... I mean, we're already 20. Like a bit loser lor. BUT WHO CARES LAH! WE'RE FUCKING HAPPY! And though I've got so many things to say. Nah... I know we girls will forever remember. Hahaha!
I had some really embaressing moments of getting drunk too. Jees. Don't want to think about that.
I'm really summarizing everything now. Because I want to eat lah.
Broke up with Hamdi. But we've yet to make it clean. I totally lost it at his place, and as much as its something I wish to forget, I don't wish too either, on the other hand. Its a painful experience I must say, but... I learnt so many things from it.
Single life during the end of the year was good. No one tied me down (except daddy dearest who has the utmost right to cos' I'm his only baby girl). Met many new guys, even one who's leaving for Toronto. But I've always felt that something fishy was going on, like he's just going to sex me that's all.
Well, I'm hot. Hahaha!
My hair went through a lot. So did my face. :D
Had 3 different jobs in a year. Went for 6 interviews. I hate the feeling of failing an interview.
Learnt to make beads. And tried setting up my own shop which I end up... Well. Giving up.
Went to Hong Kong!
Gained and lost weight. Had depression. Suicidal thoughts are scary and nonetheless stupid. A pretty face like me couldn't die. It'll just make this world uglier. :)
2009 was helluva ride for me. Not pretty, not ugly either. I wish 2010, would just be filled with beautiful things like me and my friends. 21, I'm coming.
